can a dog be a bitch??

Even though Ah Boy is a male, he's such a bitch!!!!
I made barking noises
(for fun.i'm not wacko)
and he just sits there and doesn't respond.
But the moment I whistle
He starts barking.
wth!!!
I ought to stop feeding him.
See he still dare to bark or not.
Bitch man, him.
LOL

Limitations

I don't know about you but I find some shows really ridiculous.
This shows how tormenting and cruel a human being can be.
Yes.
I'm talking about

PRANK SHOWS!!

A common example would be

America's Funniest Home Videos

How is it funny to see someone get hit in the balls

or see their hair get caught on fire

or see a person fall off his bike and tumble down a hill

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And shameless pranks played on the citizens of Japan

Remember the one where the man gets sent of flying into the cold snowy area while he was trying to relax in a massage chair??

(There are spas in Japan that require you to strip)

Someone pays money to relax to get away from stress or problems

and this kind of thing happens to them
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And remember the one about the public toilet??

When you enter, pull down ur pants and sit on the bowl

The whole thing springs up and the whole world sees your private part

Like wth man.

This is not funny.

You cause the person great embarrassment and shame

and I can't believe you people find other people's sorrow funny.

BGSS

thats stands for

Brunei Goverment Service Sucks

seriously man
i went to the clinic on Tuesday afternoon after my practs exam
but they couldnt do anything cause the counter was already closed
and you know what time they called me to come??

7.45am to 9.00am

THE HELL MAN!!!

and the place weas freaking empty

but anyway, i went there this morning
I reached there at 8am and the place was packed
Actually all I wanted to do was have my teeth cleaned
(I do brush my teeth. It was time from my check up anyway)

I waited until 9.30am and when it was finally my turn, the 'doctor' kept telling me that i have good oral hygiene and whatever.
like duhh~ i already know that.
And you know what she did??
All she did was do scaling for me which lasted for like 2 minutes and the nurse didnt even giveme freaking goggles to wear.
The fuck man.
Then after she was done, she called me that I could come for a check up NEXT YEAR.
she actually said NEXT YEAR

MY GOD!!

she's THAT FUCKING LAZY!!

I waited for one and a half an hour for you to do and tell me THAT??!?!!!

remarks

I'm aware of my flaws.
You need not remind me everytime you saw me.

I know what a loud mouth I can be
I know how straight forward I can be
I know how much of a bitch I can be
I know how lazy I am
I know how huge and elephant-sized my ears are
I know how messy and crisp my hair is
I know how small my eyes are
I'm aware how huge my arms are
and I'm also aware of the size of my boobs
and I'm definitely aware of the fact that I need to loose weight cause I'm freaking overweight!

I don't need YOU to tell me
I've been hearing it all my life
From my 'friends',my parents and even random strangers

SO SHUT THE HELL UP

just stating facts

when you know someone who is loved by almost every guy and where every girl wants to be her, whatever you do - regardless of whose fault it is - that would make her upset, everyone's gonna take her side and just leave you hanging and you have no option or what-so-ever but to suck it up and apologize.

who i'm talking about is already pretty obvious. go ahead and talk shit about me behind my back then. i'm so sick of caring.
sorry i'm different or not 'normal'. send me to a shrink la so that i can waste one hour of my life listening to the person giving me useless advice that would go in on ear and out the other.

now i know why 'friends' rarely last for more that 5 years. shit happens and people change.
can' t wait to get out of this school filled with bimbos and eye rollers. 2 more months and i'm outta here.

better off

Despite what the picture says, its usually 90% of my life even if I have my mobile phone to play text messaging/miss calling with or my ipod filling my head with beats that help distract me of thoughts and memories

I've been accused of so many horrible things that I've never done before in my life. I'm sure that I may have done things which led to you accusing me but still..
People rather believe lies than truths because isn't that what gossips all about??

LIES

Alot of people that I've talked to most of them shrug me off maybe its cause they're just not interested in what I'm talking about or I'm just not cool enough for them. If you're not interested then why bother talking to me in the first place??

I know a few who chat with me in MSN about their life and what they're thinking and really wanna do and asking me if its weird and stuff but in real life, the act like they don't know me. My god!! I'm so sick of being a doormat and getting trampled all over.
So this is my reason to why I'm 'passive' - as people call it.

People move on with their life and make new friends. Some even ignore their old friends the moment they get the boy/girl they want. Well I hope you had your fun ignoring since 2004. Now its my turn.
As you people call it

got BOY, no more FRIEND

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my 2009 resolution:
die

delete the last post

last day of school is the time where everyone wants to
reminisce about the past
and by doing that, it
reminded
me of why I
hated
them last time and now.

what a real friend is

you always told me the things i wanna hear

you showed me a smile when you see me near

you know my weaknesses and secrets

and gave me ur shoulder when i needed support

you listen to the details of my life

to every complaint and hapiness i felt

i thought to myself

i'm the luckiest person alive

you always stood by me

and you had my back

for u to stab and laugh till i begged

you see the tears rolling from my eyes

but to no avail from your merciless soul

you took what you needed

and left me naked

with a soul that was sliced through within

i see who you are now

as black as the devil's heart

you say to forgive and forget

but i say..

to forget and stay away

joy to the world??

EXAMS OVER!!!!

and yet..i thought i would feel happier than this. I think reality has finally caught up with me. I need to face my examination results when school reopens and I think i'm screwed. Papers that people thought were tough, I thought were ok and vice versa. Thats a very very very bad sign. lol.

So tomorrow is when my 'holiday' starts till friday. Unfortunately, some of the Ugama and Economics still have exams tomorrow and then only their break starts.

Plans for tomorrow : SLEEP IN!! It's a must ok?? Besides, I need the sleep xD or i get dragged to go to Miri early in the morning at 6 or 7 AM T.T I don't wanan go!! It's not worth the time cause my parents will be busy doing their stuff and I'll practically just be in the car and sleep and we'll be back home by night. THATS SUCH A WASTE OF TIME!! I COULD'VE DONE THAT AT HOME. Besides, long trips in the car = numerous, unnecessary quarrelling that could have been well avoided. And to those who are wondering, "Why not jsut keep your mouth shut??". Trust me, it'll happen even if I do.

For thursday, I wanna go to the mall. I so badly wanna play the neoprint machine. It's been over 10 years since I did.
And also I wanna catch "You Don't Mess With The ZOHAN". C'mon, its Adam Sandler!! How could I miss that?? Although there are some conservative people who told me to not watch it cause it was quite dirty compare to his other movies. I honestly do not mind it at all. Just as long as I don't watch it with my parents or relatives then i'm ae-okay =D

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blogspot needs to have emoticons. But then again, that was the only thing I liked about yahoo 360[wasn't very user friendly thats why i switched]

why, oh why??

As I've mentioned earlier, I was never very good with numbers. I didn't manage to finish my Maths paper by just a few questions. I sorta wanted to cry after the teacher collected my paper cause it was the first time i didnt manage to finish my paper in time.

I guess the reason I didn't complete it was because I counted too slow. Usually numbers easily come to my head like 7-4=3.Simple maths but my brother's partying and screaming friends till 3am made me have difficulty to sleep.Oh well, fortunately he's going back to UK in 2 days and hopefully he wouldn't be here when I'm having my real O level examination.

Usually my friends would gather in the school canteen after every paper. I disappeared right away after taking my bag cause i didn't wanan discuss questions that i didn't even answer. I freaking pissed off at myself. I had to go to the airport to pick up my mum anyway.

She told me that she bought some of the skirts that i wanted. Somehow I wasn't too happy. I just kept thinking, if i do accept this skirt, she would somehow use it against me someday. Plus if i wear them to tuition, she'll say "who are you dressing up so nice for?" or if i wear them to the mall, "you better not wear that to the mall.so many guys there." So what is the point of me having it?? I did reach a point where I wanted to throw away all my clothes and just keep all the baggy old home shirts that I have. Life's never easy even for the simplest matters.

My dad mentioned about one of my old neighbours that I haven't seen for years. I suddenly remember about the times when me, my brother, manda, milda and her(xiao jun) used to play together all the time in our primary years. We would go to each others house and do silly nonsense and play on the swing imagining we were on the rough seas going for voyages across the earth.

There was also this game of King and Queen and servants. Of course the oldest,my brother and xiao jun, became the King and Queen while the rest of us were servants. We were told to do things like bringing them food and drinks and do stupid actions. Being a young, spoilt brat, I burst into tears and said I didn't wanna play anymore. From that day, I refused to join in their games that involved in following orders. Till now, I never managed to take orders very well if there weren't any immediate benefits for me.

I didn't care what people thought of me because I didn't like bothering myself with other people thoughts when I already have enough of my own. Mistakes are to be made by myself and learnt by myself. I'm not saying that I'm totally oblivious to what everyone says to me. I do take advices but I don't take it as hard as most people do.

Everyone's gonna have a different opinion of what you do. So how can you listen to everyone and make everyone satisfied?? Caring too much will really hurt yourself emotionally and eventually physically.

fcuked up mood

Tonight's the night that the would repeat the Beijing Olympic's ceremony on Astro. Since I haven't watched it yet, I thought I could. Instead a bunch of my brother's friends have occupied the compound, living room and kitchen. I wanted to cook my freaking my dinner!!! Actually, I told my brother to 'ta pau'(order take away) mee mamak(noodles) for me.

And when i asked for it, his response was "No, you still want it meh??"

(I asked in the morning before he went out) I knew he was going to be back late and i wanted it for dinenr so like duhh!!

Now, I can't cook foor for myself or even get a snack cause its swarming with neantherfalls!!

In addition to all that, I had a quarrel this afternoon which was partially my fault but knowing that doesnt fix things. People just never realize what they have till they're gone. Then again,some people just don't really care.

My adobe photoshop has just corrupted and I have no idea how to fix it and my stomach is freaking annoying. This is such a wonderful night. I wonder what else can go right.