I've had anger issues since forever.
I don't know how to supress them or make them go away.
Meditating doesn't help cause it'll just make me twitch alot and I'll get all squirmy like a li'll kid.
Well, from the look of my face, the first thought that'll come into your head in a one word definition is...scary. full stop.
I've never been good at anything in my life whether its studies or handy-work. Just practically nothing!!
The holidays is the time when I will go insane playing DDR
Currently I'm playing a song called Red Zone by Tatsh but I keep getting a freakin' B. I would literally start screaming vulgar languages at myself and calling myself a stupid pathetic, useless B*TCH.
And I'm also trying to learn a few new songs on the piano. The moment some noise or person comes and distract, I'll mess up and start lashing my anger on the piano and go into a furious rage.
When I like something and I see someone better than me at it, I'll keep on going and beating myself up about it. At times they work, and at times they dont. (works as in I actually improve)
But when I don't, the anger will just manifest within me.
Now you know why I'm always such an angry person.
I don't know if its PMS or its the emotional stress I'm dealing with now.
I've even thought that, with the way my anger issues are going,
I'm going to die - old,alone,bitter and angry.
Then again...
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