to my dear , Nicky

Recently last year, my dog, Bak, died of old age. Yes, I cried.
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This year, i knew that Nicky was going to die of old age as well
but hers was unbearable to watch
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She is now under full body paralysis and she just keeps twitching
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I saw her lying on the ground at such an awkward position

I then realize that she fell when she was either walking or sitting and couldnt get up anymore

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I tried to put something in her mouth but the pain in her body was too much for her to even unclench her jaw
Every now and then I would hear her groan and breathe very heavily
She no longer has control of her bowels
and her stomach has bloated as a sign of kidney failure

My guess is that she'll pass within 24 hours
I'm gonna miss you so much, Nicky
I hope that the pain will end soon
='(