Wednesday, December 24, 2008

smiiiiilleeeee =)

saying that i'm happy when i'm not

saying that i'm ok when i'm clearly not
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saying congratultions to people i'm shouldn't
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dreaming and wishing and hoping for the impossible
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smiling when all i wanna do is cry

clenching my jaws just to hold my tears in
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driving myself busy just so that i wont think about it
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too busy keeping myself occupied to feel the need to sleep
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too busy keeping myself occupied to even eat
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and making my real tears as a joke
but of course,
i AM a JOKE!!
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then come to think of it
isn't there a phrase that says
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'Smile and the whole world smiles with you,
Cry and you cry alone."
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so I wanna be a plain jane,
I wanna be like everyone else
and
I want people to stop bugging me with the same irritating question,
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"are you ok?"
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can't you bloody see that i'm clearly not??!!
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So yea.

Just
SMILE
and pretend that nothing ever happened
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-when I can feel it eating my insides and out

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