It sucks to know that

I have no one

to turn to

in time of

need

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short post

hi everybody
wanna wish you all a Happy Chinese Moo Year again
well I'm now really really sick cause of all the heaty snacks served at people's house
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i'm currently typing all this in a cyber cafe in miri's Parkson and i tell you arh..
this place stinks like shyt!!!

SERIOUSLY!!

it smells like a toilet
its horrible!!!

*barf*

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anyway,
i may suspend this blog or change its link
cause there have been some really annoying people tagging on my board
i dont wanna remove my tagboard cause thats the only way SOME people can contact me
so au revoir for now

i'll post pix when i get back

^^

damn brunei

i know that i've been complaining alot about work but...

MY GAWD!!!

I MISS WORK!!

1. I MISS SERVING SUSHIS!!
2. I MISS MONA'S HYPERNESS!!
3. I MISS THE STUPID JOKES I MAKE WITH ZUDIN!!
4. I MISS THE STUPID MUMBLES RUDY MAKES!!
5. I MISS THE ATTENTION YUDI GIVES ME!! :-#
6. I MISS RYAN WHO HAS BEEN TRANFERED TO KB!!
7. I MISS JAY AR'S RANDOM MOODY LASHES!!
8. I MISS EARNING MONEY!!

I JUST MISS WORK!!!!!!!!

>.<
and its all cause the stupid flood caused almost

the whole of Brunei's power supply to shut down

I'm stuck at home, either sleeping or just fa dai-ing at the monitor

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then tomorrow is my chinese new year day-off till wednesday

so like I won't be working for

one whole week

that like $XXX go byebye man

T.T

im so fucking tired of guys coming up to me and saying

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"I LOVE YOU"

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am i suppose to believe that bullshit??
do you really expect me to go

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"REALLY??

AWWW~ I LOVE YOU TOO"

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then what??
let you get into my pants??

what the fuck is wrong with the male species??

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and to that

OLD HAG

i'm sorry that your boyfriend
dumped you cause he likes me

but don't go bullshitting about me

to everyone in your

fucking foreign language

cause I DIDN'T DO A GOD DAMN THING
you're just too ugly and too much of a satan for

ANYONE to withstand!!

Gong Xi Fa Chai in advance

I'm posting this so early

is cause I'm leaving tomorrow for Miri

to celebrate

Chinese New Years

with my grandparents there

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I wanted to wear a chongsam this year but i'm too short and fat

I have no new shoes for this year so i'm just gonna wear slippers

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I've lost the mood to celebrate chinese new year

but aside from the emo-ness of me

here's something for you to laugh about before I leave...

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world peace for the new year

stress out.not stressED out

a friend once told me,
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"Even when things are bad, just smile and act as if everythings okay"

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well, i don't have a effing choice at work
cause even if you're having

the worst day of your life,

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you gotta just smile

and

give the customers a 'welcoming' feeling

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so i just wanna say to all the people,
who love to act like as if

you're so rich

that you can afford an expensive meal

&

you get to look down on people

who serve you the food

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FUCK YOU!!

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thank you and may god have mercy on your soul
:)

horrible crisis

As we all know, a heavy rain on the 20th of January,2009 on a tuesday night had hit Brunei
(i dunno about all the other neighbouring countries la)
I've got some pictures of the flood
(most of them are of gadong)

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the river behind The Mall

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the underpass

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and last night,

we were all just working and the customers were enjoying their food,
the power went out and everyone started panicking
(i don't know why people panick when it gets dark.who the hell will rape you??)
So we had to light candles at every table,

(thank god my phone has a built in flashlight)

Cease and cancel all orders that require cooking

cause the kitchen was pitch black

sorry yea, no pictures

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but the funny thing is that, their dinner had turned into a romantic, candle-lit dinner..

by 8.30pm, the shop was closed.

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We were also sent home from work this morning

cause there was no power and there still isn't any till now..

guilt and self hatred

when something happens, i cant help but feel...
all the blame if it has anything that involves me

thoughts like,

"if i wasn't there"

or

"if i hadn't had done that"

would pop up..

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who do you trust or tell when you're in trouble??

1. you're friends who you've known since forever
2. or the person in the same siuation??

how do you handle

10 to 100 different opinons??

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how do you know which one to choose??

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and plainly,

how do you recover from it??

suck it up

today i have finally reached the point where I can't stand it anymore
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the first few times were weird but understandable

then after that, it starts getting annoying

and soon it becomes

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UNBEARABLE!!

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I even wanted to quit then i thought it over...

It'll be such a waste if i quit

and a couple hundred bucks gone down the drain

So I checked my calendar.

NOW i know why I was so pissed off

My period is coming...

today was fun.NOT !!

i finished work at 10.45pm today and i don't get overtime for it
i was told to do A LOT of things
and my other part time collegue was like so freaking relaxed
while i was running around like a mad person trying to accomplish everyone's favour

GRRR!!!

and after al lthe customers have left ,

I had to refill all the soya sauce bottles

when its a job usually done the next morning

well the good thing is tat i found out that

I cannot take a nap in the afternoon when the shop is closed cause i'll be more sleepy..

i have to

stay WIDE AWAKE

and

drink coffee

then only at night i will be hyper

LOL.

plus i found out that the two bartenders are actually together(as in bf and gf)

when they don't even look like they are.

they just walk past or work with each other and act like as if ther's nothing going on between 'em

=S

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P.S. i have lsot 5kgs since working here =D

read to beginning to understand the end

this afternoon me and one of my collegues were like talking about some stuff to do with falling in love
(i bet you're thinking why in the world would you talk about things like that at work.
i don't know why either. he started it.LOL)

and he said that at my age now, its just puppy love
but when you have really matured, you will fall in love and its dangeroud cause you will give your al lto the other person
how much truth is in that depends on each person la
then he started talking about his past relationships
and he said that if he liked someone he'll just say immediately to the person,

"I like you."
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then in the evening when i clocked in for work for the 2nd time, i was doing my duties

then all of a sudden he look at me and say,

"i like you"
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I was thinking "WTF??!!"

cause he's like 30+ and married with one daughter

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i just like gave this reli blur stare like

O.o

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then only later he said that he likes me

is cause I always seem to know what to do next at work

and he started asking if i would come back to excapade

to work again during school holidays or something...

apalar~~~

LOL

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anyway~

one of the sushi chef so funny

(he's the one always at the far end of the bar)

he kept trying to give me a red flower (not a rose)

but i just took it as a joke and jz smiled/laughed and walked away...

its those that look like a sunflower but the leaves are further apart

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actually, very cute la all of them

they always do funny things

hopefully i can take a picture with all of them individually before i leave

I think I would seriously miss working there

And i just realzied how weird it would be for me to go there and eat again

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oh well, thats the way the sushi rolls

xD

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HOW DO YOU AVOID

THE

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UNAVOIDABLE

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today is officially one week

yes.i said it.i'd rather stay at work than go home cause i'm never happy here!!!!

at least when i'm there people make me laugh and forget about how fat or ugly i am

at least i dont have to hear you screaming in my ear

at least i get to be myself for once in ym fucking life!!!!!

5th day of work

i know that recently all i can talk about is things that happened at work but what to do??
thats liek the only place i get to only ever be at...

so today...

saw Elaine and Jarrod

made small talk with my manager

got 3 new phone numbers (as friends ok~ =.='')

got one new email

bought new shoes

and I'm finally about to get used to the working environment

btw...if you like specialyl wanna look for me...
please message me or let me know cause sometimes i might not be there
waste 5c and save u all the walking ba
=p

after one month of heart break and disbelief...
its finally safe for me to say
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I'M...

I'M OVER...

I'M OVER YOU!!!!

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WOOO!!!!

YEAYH BABY~

(In the austin power's accent xD)

2nd day of work

today was so much better than yesterday its
cause there was alot to do and time didn't move as slow

i got to talk to the boss today
i got to see an old friend
i got to see my schoolmates and classmates

plus mr richard (he was liek so freaking shocked that i work there)
i made a few mistake and learnt from it well

I even got to sing a birthday song for one of the customers!!

=p
but arh..the annoying thing is that i have to force this smile on my face for like 3-4 hours.

MY GOD!!!

we'll see how things go la in a week
=p

and happy birthday, Shu En!!

and happy belated birthday, FahFah!!

action out of boredom

nope.
i didnt go out and drink or anything like that
i went out to look for work
and guess wat??
i'm working now
just got back and im so bloody tired
well this post is gonan be short cuz my head's pounding.
so au revoir.
i'll tell u more when i get used to the working conditions
^^

if i could see you again

I found this on manda's blog and although I didn't get tag, it sounded pretty cool xD
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RULES:
1. Put Your itunes, windows media player etc on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name
5. Tag 6 people.

Are you male or female ?
; gotta be somebody

Describe yourself!
; stop and stare

What do people feel when they're around you ?
; this is real, gotta find you

Describe your current relationship.
; first love. [oh gawd xD]

Where would you like to be now ?
; wait there

How do you feel about love ?
; Capri

What's your life like ?
; I kissed a girl

What would you ask for if you had only one wish ?
; la la la [hahahaha.so true.its a secret =p]

Say something wise.
; River flows in you [wakakaka]

If someone says " is this okay ? " you say,
; Photograph

How would you describe yourself ?
; yue liang dai biao wo de xing

What do you like in a guy/girl ?
; let me be by you side

How do you feel today ?
; midnight bottle

What is your life's purpose ?
; and it feels like

What is your motto ?
; feelings show

What do your friends think of you ?
; the man who cant be moved

What do you think of your parents ?
; left my hearts [ =s roight~]

What do you think about very often ?
; now you're gone [too coincidental]

What is 2 + 2 ?
; maybe

What do you think of your best friend ?
; magic [woah]

What do you think of the person you like ?
; waiting for you [seriously too coincidental =.=]

What is your life story ?
; the moment

What do you want to be when you grow up ?
; tied down [omg!! no!!!! i don wanna be!!! T.T]

What do you think of when you see the person you like ?
; kiss the rain

What will you dance to at your wedding ?
; gone [not bad la~]

What will they play at your funeral ?
; my girl [LOL]

What is your hobby/interest ?
; when i grow up

What is your biggest fear?
; if you're not the one [i know many ppl will agree with me =p]

What is your biggest secret?
; hero [daym~]

What do you think of your friends?
; one fine wire [true~ such a delicate balance for a quarrel to erupt]

What will you post this as ?
; if i could see you again

I tag

1. J Jia
2. Choo
3. Frozster
4. S Mei
5. Y Ling
6. Mo Jo Pul Fuad

aussie uni search

I think I'm finally gonna stop jumping about at my decisions of where to go and what to study.

I've decided on Architecture + interior designing
and I wanna study that in Melbourne,Australia.
(nothing to do with a certain guy. I've already thought about going there WAY BEFORE I met him)


Reason being that its the closest thing to art as I can get and getting a degree out of
plus alot of my friends are gonan be there and i wanna stay away from UK as far as possible
xD

I've only so far heard about Monash University and Victoria University.

If anyone has more info about universities in Aussie please let me know asap.

my email : yam.yam25@hotmail.com

I wouldn't mind going to Perth even though its like o nthe other side.
hahahahaha

bye bye shen shen

we just sent our dear friend off at the airport.

He's going to Taylor's college

here's the guy who dropepd my one month old puppy on the head from my bed

T.T

oh well~

and also here's the guy who makes really lame jokes and somhow I've always found that his sentences were liek half complete

well if I do get the chance to go to KL, i'll go look for him

=)

we'll miss you wei shen

stupid mistake

i did the worst new years greeting ever

I was greeting everyone on my MSN

"Happy New Year"

so this is what happened as I was typing it to Choo :

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me : hey!!

me : happy bday

I only realized my mistake about 5 minute later

me : oh shit

me : i mean happy new year

me : hahahahaha

about 10 minutes later

choo : hey

choo : lol

choo : wtf

choo : ure 6 months early

choo : :P

choo : hahahaha

choo : happy new year to you too

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I swear that it was by accident!!!

xD

MY 2009 song

i so love nickleback for always releasing the perfect song at

the right time

and i'm lovin' this song now

you can't tell me that this song doesnt rock!!

and if it wasn't for star world,

i would have never heard this song

xD

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This time

I wonder what it feels like

To find the one in this life

The one we all dream of

But dreams just aren't enough

So I´ll be waiting for the real thing.

I know it by the feeling.

The moment when we´re meeting

Will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen

So I`ll be holdin’ my breath Right up to the end

Until that moment when

I find the one that I spend forever with

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`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.

'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.

Someone to love with my life in their hands.

There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.

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`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own

And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.

Somebody else that feels the same somewhere.

There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

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Tonight out on the street out in the moonlight

And damn it this feels too right

It´s just like Déjà Vu

Me standin’ here with you

So I´ll be holdin`my breath

Could this be the end?

Is it that moment when I find the one that I spend forever with?

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‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there

'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.

Someone to love with my life in their hands.

There´s gotta be somebody for me like that.

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`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own

And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.

Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?

There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

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You can´t give up!

Lookin´ for that diamond in the rough

Because you never know when it shows up

Make sure you´re holdin` on

‘Cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on

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‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.

'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.

Someone to love with my life in their hands.

There has gotta be somebody for me

Ohhhhhh.

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`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own

And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.

Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?

There `s gotta be somebody for me out there.

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‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there

And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.

Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?

There has gotta be somebody for me out there.

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2008 was crap for me

so let's see if 2009 will be better

=)

josias' flight off

After celebrating new year's at fah's house,
we all went to moses' house then to the airport
to send Jo off
everyone cried

even me

>.<

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this kinda got me wondering that IF i was allowed to send 'her' off...
would i cry?? or would i be happy??
=s

happy new year

its finally 2009!!!!!
but i dont feel anything different though
lol
i slept over at fah's place with like about 10+ as well
xD
and i'm also currently blogging on her comp so no pix for today

Well, first hour of 2009 was fine
the next hour was spent crying my eyes out for a guy not worth my tears

since my beginning of 2009 was so crappy hope it'll look up
=)