I've had anger issues since forever.
I don't know how to supress them or make them go away.
Meditating doesn't help cause it'll just make me twitch alot and I'll get all squirmy like a li'll kid.
Well, from the look of my face, the first thought that'll come into your head in a one word definition is...scary. full stop.
I've never been good at anything in my life whether its studies or handy-work. Just practically nothing!!
The holidays is the time when I will go insane playing DDR
Currently I'm playing a song called Red Zone by Tatsh but I keep getting a freakin' B. I would literally start screaming vulgar languages at myself and calling myself a stupid pathetic, useless B*TCH.
And I'm also trying to learn a few new songs on the piano. The moment some noise or person comes and distract, I'll mess up and start lashing my anger on the piano and go into a furious rage.
When I like something and I see someone better than me at it, I'll keep on going and beating myself up about it. At times they work, and at times they dont. (works as in I actually improve)
But when I don't, the anger will just manifest within me.
Now you know why I'm always such an angry person.
I don't know if its PMS or its the emotional stress I'm dealing with now.
I've even thought that, with the way my anger issues are going,
I'm going to die - old,alone,bitter and angry.
Then again...
DRAMA-LESS
So now, got alot more la
and plus I have alot of thoughts that I need to let out.
(don't tell me go talk to my friends cz these thoughts come abt in the midle of the night)
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Nen Yaw aka Xiao Shi Fu
=p
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Another person I befriended from wu shu is
Ah Liang
I met Sunny, our dance instructor, when I participated in
the Cultural Chinese Dance for our school's Golden Jubilee
even our childhood friend
Dann Kenn aka Mr. Bakatuki
dropped by from KK for just a day just to see us
We've all grown a lot since we last met-
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Marshall aka 'Shawn's friend' is someone I met on the 20th on November.
wait, scratch that. I met him way before that,
we only started talking on the 20th of Nov.
However, due to some problems, we are no longer speaking
Eventhough our friendship was short, he has made a great impact on my life.
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Then there was China....
This is
Xiao Lei - our tour guide
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and
the Yong family
And also due to some problems, I can't talk to them
well only one of them actually
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speaking of friends,
this year is also the first time
I pounded my right fist into the wall
(four times to be exact)
My knuckles swelled and turned blue black
and couldn't lift a pen properly for about 2 weeks
so smart right??LOL
(I was angry about something)
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I'm definitely no stranger when it comes to falling in and out of love
We've spent 6 months together and it was good while it lasted
I hope you'll find someone better than me in everyway and that she'll make you happy =)
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This year was the first time I've gone overseas with just my friends. We went to singapore.
Although it was under school, we had a blast ^^
Its no surprise that we went to the Singapore Zoo
I saw a polar bear!!
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And the most beautiful and majestic creature aside from their usual orange and black are
White Tigers
My condolences to the family of the man who got killed by one of these tigers
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I even got touch a wallaby
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Back in Brunei, during the school's funfair,
I got to carry a living, breathing python on my shoulder.
If i'm not mistaken, this python weighs about 60kgs
(the snake wrangler's cute too =p)
-Reptiles have always fascinated me to the point where I just had to try
SCORPIONS!
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While we're talking about food,
I've said it before that I tried this drink in China
Well its something new that I've done this year so i post la
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Anyway, our school has offered us this unbelievale chance
to attend a course on Public Speaking for FREE by HSBC
yes, i repeat,
FREE!!!!
I still remember waking up every Friday morning just to go back to school
We were told to write speeches.
1st topic was on myself -
It was especially hard cause how do you write about yourself and not make it sound like some 8 years old wrote it and not make yourself sound too cocky??
and 2nd was on anything topic we wanted -
the only hard thing was choosing a topic,
I chose Animal Cruelty.
This was a fun speech to do cause I managed to get everyone who was there listening to get involve
and I got to see the disgust in their face when I went into detail of how animals were killed
(it means they were listening ba)
and after each speech we made, we were given an evaluation on how our speech went
i trembled and stuttered alot but surprisingly they thought I was pretty good
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it was a great experience and i'll never forget it
The three in the middle are our guides
Amy, Rozana and Elizabeth
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Right before our O level Examinations, we were invited
to Miss Tay(our physics teacher)'s wedding
It was the first time I got to be one of those girls who stand and block the groom from seeing his future wife until he did every disgusting we told him do.
It was extremely funny AND fun
Click here to read the stuff the groom had to do just to see his bride (just scroll all the way down)
(http://honggim.blogspot.com/2008_10_01_archive.html)
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I finally got to attend prom eventhough it wasnt very fun, its still an event to remember
(http://yamyam25.blogspot.com/2008/11/prom-pictures.html)
I spent
$80 on the dress,
$70 on hair and make up,
$40 on the ticket
$30 on shoes
$20 on mani and pedi and
$10+ on the clutch
total = about $250.
WOW!! THATS ALOT!!!! T^T
I wish prom lasted a little longer though
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then I 'attended' my first sleepover ever in my whole entire life and thank god it was at
THE EMPIRE HOTEL!!!
I remember getting sunburnt pretty badly
T.T
had a free scuba dving lesson
and played twister for the first time
I know how wrong this looks but it happens at every game ok~ =.=''
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And last but not least, I get to spend New Year's Eve with friends for the first time
xD
I usually spend it alone...
If anyone sees this book sold in Brunei, please let know!!!
or help me buy and i promise that i'll pay you back every penny.
you turn 17 today Went to orchid hotel last night
Star Wars
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I came apart inside a world made of angry people
I found a boy who had a dream
Making everyone smile
He was sunshine
I fell over my feet
Like bricks underwater
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How am i supposed to tell you how i feel
I need oxygen
Oh baby if I was your lady I will make you happy
Im Never gonna leave,
never gonna leave
Oh baby i will be your lady
I am going crazy for you
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And so i found a state of mind
Where i could be speechless
I had to try it for a while
To figure out this feeling
This felt so right
Pull me upside down to a place
Where you've been waiting
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How am i supposed to tell you how i feel
I need oxygen
Oh baby if i was your lady
I will make you happy
Im never gonna leave,
Never gonna leave
Oh baby i will be your lady
I am going crazy for you
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and You dont wanna keep me waiting
Staring at my fingers feeling like a fool
Oh baby i will be your lady
I will make you happy
Im never gonna leave,
Never gonna leave
Oh baby i will be your lady
I am going crazy,
yeah-ohhhh
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Tell me what you want,
Baby tell me what you need
Anything i ask baby give it to me
Baby give it to me, give it to me
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repeat first verse
this would make such a nice advert for DQ
=p
she was so full and stuffed
(plus it was because her snout couldn't reach to the end ofthe cup xD)
so she just fell asleep
then just now I gave her a 2 inch by 2 inch cut of cheesecake and a peppermint candy cane
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i know dogs shouldnt eat this much sugar but once a year nia ma
I rarely eat sugary stuff too anyway
so neither would she for the rest of the year.
